I'm posting some personal stuff after a long time. Bear with me.
Routine sucks. Spontaneity, sudden changes, spur of the moment actions are those that keep me going. However these days, I'm realizing that the concept of a regimen or routine is very much required in order to achieve those dreams, which, until now were deemed just dreams. Achieving mastery, yes that's the right phrase to use. Achieving mastery over any art needs a regimen. It's no wonder that kids are always told to study at the same time everyday and go to bed at the same time everyday. I've viewed succumbing to a routine as akin to giving up freedom. I don't clearly understand why I'm so averse to routine but that's just the way I am. So how do I change that and get into a regimen and why would I want to do that.
Ambition, is probably the main reason. There's always an incredible urge to 'achieve'. My dad must have passed on this gene to me. It's so hard to sit and just do mundane stuff. It seems ironical but I don't 'achieve' either. I'm stuck in this boat which rocks between the 'achievement' and 'mundane,have to do stuff' waves. it's terribly annoying to sit helplessly in this boat. In fact, it's even more annoying to sit with a surfboard and ready to surf either wave, ( though I have to admit the achievement wave looks tantalizingly attractive and dangerous).
Fulfilling this ambitious mind of mine, is possible only by following a regimen, or rather a series of regimens. My ENTP personality ( for all those Myers and Briggs lovers ) combined with a little bit of ADD and a dash of laziness makes it even more harder to follow a regimen. However hard it is, I've started making some decent inroads into this boring world of routine. Gosh, every moment is painful, but when I envision that end result, the pain does fade away a little.
